April 30, 2008
Instincts or Medicine?
A fine line between nature and science
So today I had a scheduled induction. Much to my hesitation I followed through with the appointment and showed up this morning at 5AM excited to meet this little one.
All the while feeling like things were being forced and a little too early for this babies arrival. Little things like, this babies birthday doesn't feel right to be in April? But I still haven't figured out my-personal line between relying on medicine and relying on instincts? I kept telling myself, if I don't go in today and I opted not to go in yesterday; what if the chord raps around her...and you know from there....and it was my decision to wait. No one can predict that but how could I live with not trusting my doc and just going in?
I will say that I prayed hard before Monday's appointment asking God to help me make the right decision. God didn't reveal his confidence to me on Monday but He sure did today. He took care of the details today.
Brady and I showed up at the hospital at 5AM. They started patocin at 7AM and the doctor checked me at 7:30 thinking he would break my water and we would have the baby by noon. After he checked me he realized it was too early to break my water and we waited things out until noon. No epideral, thank goodness. I was free to walk to the bathroom and move around as much as needed. The cantractions were rough with patocin but nothing unbarable, I know they would have been a lot worse if my water would have broken. The nurse hinted that if the doc comes back and brakes my water the risk of a C section would be a lot greater, 2 vaginal deliveries and then a C section...NO Thank you. When the doc checked me I asked if it was an option to just stop the patocin and go home. It was starting to feel very clear to me that it was not God's timeing for this baby to enter the world yet. I found such comfort that doc. said yes and left it up to us. Believe me, I didn't want to tell everyone, "No baby, time to go home." Especially to Mammy and Pops who left New Hope at 2:30 this morning, Teresa who drove 2 hours to get here, Brooke Allen from Conway and everyone that came to the hospital. Or to have waisted a day full of contractions.
But my feeling this whole time was confirmed...I finally had the condidence to say..."Baby is just not ready." So essential this is where we are at, dialated 2-3 and 50%. No contractions currently, going to wait another week to let nature take its course. I will be up for another try at induction in a week but have high hopes for going into natural labor between now and then. I have no formula for ensuring an easy delivery come the next 6 days or for avoiding a C section. I just pray that God'd will shall be done and that I will aware of his call to this delivery and this babies needs.
April 28, 2008
A race to the finish
I am totally nesting. I haven't posted any pics of the house because I have so many projects going that it is seems like no- one room is complete. I ordered the fabric for my curtains in the living room 5 weeks ago and they are still not in..so I have given up hope of having those completed before D-day. I did get the dining room painted thanks to Beth and Lili for pulling an all nighter with me. I still need to add curtains in there to soften things up a bit but I thought I would post a pic. I am bound and determined to finish a painting for my foyer, I posted a pic. And call me crazy, never liked any sort of animal prints in the past but my hormones compelled me to pic out this zebra fabric. Don't worry the slip cover didn't take long to sew so I can easily discard it after the baby comes and I come to my senses. I am on the cusp of too much black and white I know. I finished the toile curtains, shades and adomin cushion but the room totally needs to be painted to give the nursery a finished feel. I will post more pics when things are a little more complete.
April 22, 2008
Baby Up date
No baby yet. Yesterday I checked at 1cm and 25% so no progress in a whole week. If there is one thing I have learned in the last four years it is patience...well I sure haven't mastered it but three pregnacies later, a four year old and 2 year old help speed up the process. What I mean is, I am in no hurry. I like to remind Brady, "Once she is out there is no puting her back!" And I truely believe the longer she bakes the healthier she will be, call me old school. Doctor suggested induction on 29th. Even though I am measuring 40 weeks my body is not in labor so here is my plan. If I am not dialated on Monday to a 4 or showing signs of natural labor then I will wait it out until the 6th. But anything after the 6th could mean a baby that this momma can't push out. Not like I am known to have big babies or anything :)! So I will be up for induction if I hit 41 weeks, oh heaven forbid. I am so excited to meet this little one. Her nursery is finished besides painting. I am waiting for my aunt to visit after the baby comes, she is super creative and no less than an amazing interior designer. We finished the cananpies for the girls rooms it is also lacking a serious paint job but that too can wait. Knowing my aunt, when she visits she will say...Lets just do it this weekend. She is a get-up and go kind of person; I love that about her. Anyway, I am rambling as you can see. Everything is packed and ready to go, chord blood kit, boppy, heirloom clothes for the babies arrival home, and a few back-ups. Have they reached heirloom since they have gone through Maggie and Mimi? I think so. We still haven't chosen a name. We are taking her name as seriously as choosing for Maggie and Mimi we just don't have as many options so it is taking a little longer, I have a feeling we will know as soon as we see her sweet little face. I havn't talked a lot about this pregnancy so for her record I thought I might a little...It has been a great pregnancy. Very little sickness in the beginning and lots of kicking near the end. This little one has been a stronger kicker than I remember Maggie or Mimi being. She turns a lot. I am lucky she is not breach although with 1 to 2 weeks left I know things can change. I feel like I already know what you will look although I know no less special than each of your sister's deliveries. I love you honey..already. You give me such a feeling of completion. See you soon. Can't wait for you to meet your sisters and your sweet daddy, who loves you already and can't wait to hold you.
April 15, 2008
Super proud
I had to post a link to a few of my former students that had roles in an inde-festival winning movie, War Eagles. The trailer is finally out and a few of them are featured in the trailer. Graham Gordy was the screenwriter for the movie and his name is being heard more and more these days. I had a huge crush on him in college not in the physical sense but in the career sense, he was "the New York actor". Looks like this project is just as impressive as he was to all us back then. I have been out of the acting scene during this entire pregnancy and seeing them in the trailier is so motivating and makes me super proud! Hopefully Excel will get the credit it deserves for not only being an amazing school but also an excellent casting company. When I see the trailer all I can think of is Reese Witherspoons break out performance in the '80's "The Man in the Moon"
http://www.wareaglethemovie.com/trailer.htm
Houstin, we have progress!
As of yesterday I was 25% and 1 centemeter. Most people may think this is nothing but at 37.5 weeks with Maggie and Mimi I was showing no progress. I asked the doc if he gave those measurments to me for sympathy he said he doesn't mess around with dilitation. I am super excited. My friend Andi has been such a testiment to the natural process of birthing so hopefully I can mimic her experience. Staying in the comfort of my own home this time until "go-time". Not brave enough for a home birth and not willing to give up the pampering that I will surely get during my two day spa-treatment in the hospital post-delivery-wierd I know but I love the post delivery treatment at the hospitals. And change of subject, did everyone notice the adds for Beth all over the blogs, they look awesome!
